*Clairy Browne & The Bangin' Rackettes: Baby Caught The Bus
*Nathan Angelo: Through Playing Me
*Edens Edge: Self Titled CD
Emotionally thankful it's a new day. So much going on today -- no time for pity parties. Looking forward to a weekend with great friends & good times. Wine is chilling. Pool is ready. Bring on the weekend!
*****CHEERS!*****
Current Music: Nathan Angelo's Mary Poppins' Birds
It's been a week. I believe it's my time of the month because I've turn into a snowball of emotions. Little things that usually are no big deal have become bigger than Life. Ugh...I hate when I get like this because my mind races, my tongue and brain reacts, and verbally I just lash out. So for most of this week, I've allowed myself to keep to myself, think, mediatate & pray. It's been the best self therapy. If not, I would have gone off on a few friends and that's the last thing I'd ever want.
I believe it all started with emotional binging. Lack of running, tennis, and working out slowly turns into shame and guilt. The anger sets in and I feel defeated. I know that there will be days like this. I have many days like this and I'm able to get up and move on. This time around, it just bogged me down so far that I lashed out on the What ifs. I know it's useless to even go there but I did.
Anyway, today I woke up with self Love and appreciation. It felt great to get on the scale this morning and be back to exactly where I should be. Whew. So I'm ready to try all this again.
This was my first week of marathon training. I am behind the required miles for this week but I know I'll make up for it. One of my biggest fears is the possibility that I am not cut out to run a full marathon. I guess I won't know if I refuse to try. Training during the hottest months here in Phoenix maybe wasn't the smartest thing to do. Luckly I have Tamra and Brandon, two speedsters, training right along with me for this same race. I know that they'll do they can to ensure I cross that Finish Line. So I just need to calm the F*ck out and Just Enjoy the Journey. Whew. Enough!
Let's get back to the basics and reality. So much to accomplish today I can't afford another day of self pity. Awakenings of the Mind & Heart aren't always welcomed but are much needed at certain times. Thank you for allowing me to vent and get back on solid ground. So let's do it. I'm ready to get back on and jam jam!
Today is Ella's Day of Hatch(June 10th, 2006) - She is 7 years old today. Our Little Girl had a rough start but now is a constant joy in our house. I'm so happy that Rodan talked me into keeping her.
I love watching movies, listening to music, and reading about World War II. I loved how the American public did everything they could to support this country and the troops. We'll always remember D-Day. Thank you to all those that countinue to serve in the US military and those that are true Alllies of our Country.
It's been a great week. Running and workouts at AmenZone are going well. I forgot exacly how challenging the Primal classes are that I've had to adjust my nutrition and daily calorie count. There were a few days where I tried to run miles and attend a class on the same day. It's too much! Once I begin Marathon Training I'll have to cut down the boot camp classes to two or three a week. Until then, I plan to get in as many workouts as I can.
The Message of This Week has been all about Patience. I've always been a friend of Change and Patience but the older I get, the more anxious I get about certain matters in my Life. I must remember that I am not always in control of The Big Picture. During this morning's 7 mile run, I had an incredible Conversation with God and am back to a good place. I am ready to take on Today and do all I can to inch closer to my goals. Let's all move forward!
Sade's By Your Side (Live) /Oakland, CA -- August 26th, 2011 *Sade clip courtesy ofYouTube's ConcertKid2
***Random Play
*Clairy Browne & The Bangin' Rackettes: Baby Caught The Bus
*The Script: Science & Faith
*Amanda Marshall: Tuesday's Child
*Jennifer Knapp: Letting Go
*Sade: Bring Me Home - Live 2011 CD
*Will Young: Echoes
After an early morning run and a Primal Class at AmenZone, I feel pretty good this afternoon. I'm ready to enjoy a quiet weekend at home in and around the pool. I plan to work on marathon training plan, work on my personal journal about the new goals I'm ready to tackle, and catch up on my reading.
My goals aren't just about marathon training and a healthier lifestyle. I'm shifting. There's so much more I want out of my career. I want to really focus and listen to my inner self about this portion of my Life. I'm no Spring Chicken so now's the time to address and make necessary changes.
I'm blessed to have such a strong Faith in God. Through him, I'm thankful to have Faith and confidence in myself. While giving presentations this morning, I felt an ease about the directions I plan to consider for the future. Nothing seems scary right now.
During these past few years, and most recently, I've surrounded myself with people that have become my Mentors of sorts. I'm blessed. I've learned so much about each of the personal relationships I've devoloped. I'd like to believe that all of this has made me a better Son, Partner, and friend.
I can't believe it's going on two years since Rodan and I attended Sade's last concert. It seems like yesterday we were sitting in the audience enjoying her songs of the past 30 years. How can that be? Sade's By Your Side still makes me emotional after all these years. I'm certain Sade's Bring It Home DVD will be playing often this weekend.
*****CHEERS!*****
Current Music: Sade's By Your Side
Current Mood: Happy with a twist of Excitement for this evening's Happy Hour with Friends
*Picture courtesy of AmenZone's Primal Fitnes Facebook page
I've recently started back up at AmenZone. Prior to this, I was attending another Boot Camp Style gym. I had been with this other gym since about November of 2012. Thanks to my running and Core training at the previous gym, I really believed that I would be able to return to AmenZone and continue to groove in style. WRONG! I feel as though I'm starting over again for the very first time. After my first training class, I felt great but my body was craving a nap after my work day. Turns out that five hour nap was probably one of my best deep sleeps in a long long time.
I believe I'm training with the best trainers, best fellow training mates and overall best attitudes that I need to help me reach my goals. I wrote in a previous post about my goals as far as running and training but now that I'm back at where I should be, I'll have to reevaluate that list. I'm doing less of running now since I'll be back at full gear once I start training for my first marathon. So far I'm happy with where I'm at right now. The best is yet to come...
It felt good to take part in the Arizona Road Racers' Summer Series Race #1. This race took place at Papago Park. I didn't sleep well last night and comtemplated about skipping this event but decided I would run and then I could return home for a sweet nap!
Proud to say, I set an official race 5K PR: 30:21. According to my Nike+ Sportwatch GPS, the race was more like 3.2 rather than a3.1 race. I was 8 seconds faster this morning than last Sunday's Hope 5K race. I know I'll never win a race or my age division but this is more about competing with the demons and doubts within myself. My goal is to break the 30 minute mark at one of the Summer Series events. I have 3 more chances to do that...I know I can do it!
Ready for a delicious nap and then a quiet Weekend Affair here at Home and by the Pool. Yeah, Baby!
Why?
The question that is never far away
The healing doesn't come from being explained
Jesus please don't let this go in vain
You're all I have
All that remains
So here I am
What's left of me
Where glory meets my suffering
I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I fall into Your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide
Breathe
Sometimes I feel it's all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me through
So here I am
What's left of me
Where glory meets my suffering
I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I fall into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide
It's the moment when humanity
Is overcome by majesty
When grace is ushered in for good
And all our scars are understood
When mercy takes it's rightful place
And all these questions fade away
When out of the weakness we must bow
And hear You say "It's over now"
I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take this heart and breathe it back to life
I fall into your arms open wide
When The hurt and the healer collide
[x2:]
Jesus come and break my fear
Wake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here
When the hurt and the healer collide
Jesus come and break my fear
Wake my heart and take my tears
And find Your glory even here
