Xavierism

Happy Birthday to ME!

Not bad for 49, eh???

***Randon Play

*Dara MacLean: You Got My Attention

*Lawson: Chapman Square

*Clairy Browne & The Bangin' Rackettes: Baby Caught The Bus

*Sara Bareilles: The Blessed Unrest

*Lisa Stansfield: Biography - The Greatest Hits

*Christopher Jak: Applause of The Rain

This is it...this is my last blog post on Xavierism.com / Xavierism.Typepad.com. This blog has allowed me to be creative in so many ways. I enjoyed updating and sharing with family, friends all over, and various readers. I was ready to shut my blog down last year and later changed my mind and continued with this journey. Today, I woke up early and just felt a beautiful change and shift. I'm ready to move on and move to the sidelines with my blog.

I have been rather quiet on the social media side of online things and  find myself quite happy just going along and sharing at my own pace. I'm actually quite sad but know that Change always allows for new beginnings and challenges and I'm ready to take on a new Chapter. I'm shifting and I'm now "I'm ready to be Brave!".

I'm in the process of making a copy of this blog in book form so I will always have the memories before me and within the corners and detours of my mind. Thank you to all of you for allowing me to share with you. A few of you continued to email your thoughts after each blog post and I was always completely touched. For those I connected due to Hospice, please know you will always have my contact info. To Jude, Thank you my Sunflower Angel for always adding a bit of Sunshine to my Blog and Life. One day you and I WILL hug and share that cup of coffee. Rodan, I hope you return home soon...Life isn't the same.

It's 4:06am. Coffee is Brewing. The House is quiet. My heart is filled with Love & Joy. It's a new day.

My About.me page has all of my info as to where I can be found throughout the net. I would love to connect via other sites if we haven't yet. I plan to keep this blog up for a while before I tuck it away quietly... Again, thank you, thank you. At Happy Hour today, I will toast to each of you that have touched me here with the Space of my Blog. Here's to you, Here's to Me, Here's to Us! Remember, I wanna see you be BRAVE!

My new blogging experience will now be at Xavierism.tumbler.com. Feel free to join and share with me...

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Current Music: Sara Bareilles' Brave

Current Mood: Blessed, Loved & Brave!

Brave

            

***Trainer Summer Hensley at AmenZone Primal Fitness often plays this song immediately after Primal workouts and as we warm down. After today's class, I immediately came home and really took a listen to this song and lyrics. I'm madly in love with this song that's all about Truth. Love Love Love this Song. Thank you, Summer for introducing us to this song...

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
And they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence
Won’t do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

Writer(s): Sara Bareilles, Jack Antonoff
Copyright: Sony/ATV Songs LLC, Ducky Donath Music, Tiny Bear Music, Sony/ATV Tunes LLC

Hump Day / June 26th

Bon dia! Up early and ready for a 5:30am Boxing Class led by Taylor Wright-Johnson at AmenZone's South Scottsdale location. Bring it on!

Love Is The Key

              

    Caitlin Crosby's Love Is The Key at TEDxBend

I love Caitlin's speech and just had to share with friends. It's true - Everybody has a story. Inspiration is Inspiration. Caitlin's story inspired me and thought that it may inspire a reader and or friend. After you watch this, just remember that Love Is The Key...

The Crack House Nearby...

Morning Coffee While Chillin' In The Pool

***Random Play

*Sia: Favorite Remixes of Sia's Hits

*Gary Go: Self Titled CD

*Kerrie Roberts: Time For The Show

*The Yeah You's: Looking Through You

*Toni Collette: Beautiful Awkward Pictures

*Colton Dixon: A Messenger

Marathon training is in full swing! I'm quite excited about this whole process. Thanks to good friend and personal trainer, Gil, we've worked out a training program. I need to get on track with a nutritional program to help boost energy. After a conversation with personal trainer and nutritionist, Jason Sani, after a Primal workout at AmenZone's South Scottsdale location, I am ready to focus on a nutritional plan that will help boost energy and be much better for my body.

For the past two weeks, I've given in and headed for the Crack House nearby...Quik Trip. As many times as I've step foot in the store to pay for gas or purchase a few snacks, I never really paid attention to the donut section. That was Crack I didn't need to discover. I'm happy to report that I have resisted donuts for the past two weeks. For a while, I thought I would never get back on the wagon. Without a plan or goals, it's so easy to drift and get lost. I've started something and now it's time to just do it and complete this goal all the way to the Finish Line.

Things are slowly coming together. Last week I felt a bit lost in the fog and today I am eager to recommit to my goals. Fears and doubts can wreck havoc in one's mind but I'm thankful to have Friends & an Army of Faith Soldiers on my side. Let's move foward!

*****CHEERS!*****

Current Music: Kerrie Roberts' Finally Home

Current Mood: Cool, Collected & Spiritually Connected

Chill The F*ck Out!

          

***Random Play

*Christopher Jak: Applause Of The Rain

*Mutya Buena: Real Girl

*The Script: Self Titled CD

*Francessca Battistelli: Hundred More Years

*Matchbox Twenty: North

*Britt Nicole: Gold

It's been a week. I believe it's my time of the month because I've turn into a snowball of emotions. Little things that usually are no big deal have become bigger than Life. Ugh...I hate when I get like this because my mind races, my tongue and brain reacts, and verbally I just lash out. So for most of this week, I've allowed myself to keep to myself, think, mediatate & pray. It's been the best self therapy. If not, I would have gone off on a few friends and that's the last thing I'd ever want.

I believe it all started with emotional binging. Lack of running, tennis, and working out slowly turns into shame and guilt. The anger sets in and I feel defeated. I know that there will be days like this. I have many days like this and I'm able to get up and move on. This time around, it just bogged me down so far that I lashed out on the What ifs. I know it's useless to even go there but I did.

Anyway, today I woke up with self Love and appreciation. It felt great to get on the scale this morning and be back to exactly where I should be. Whew. So I'm ready to try all this again.

This was my first week of marathon training. I am behind the required miles for this week but I know I'll make up for it. One of my biggest fears is the possibility that I am not cut out to run a full marathon. I guess I won't know if I refuse to try. Training during the hottest months here in Phoenix maybe wasn't the smartest thing to do. Luckly I have Tamra and Brandon, two speedsters, training right along with me for this same race. I know that they'll do they can to ensure I cross that Finish Line. So I just need to calm the F*ck out and Just Enjoy the Journey. Whew. Enough!

Let's get back to the basics and reality. So much to accomplish today I can't afford another day of self pity. Awakenings of the Mind & Heart aren't always welcomed but are much needed at certain times. Thank you for allowing me to vent and get back on solid ground. So let's do it. I'm ready to get back on and jam jam!

*****CHEERS!*****

Current Music: Mutya Buena's Just a Little Bit

Current Mood: Widely Awake

Happy Birthday, Ella!

Minutes after Ellas was brought to us...

Today is Ella's Day of Hatch (June 10th, 2006) - She is 7 years old today. Our Little Girl had a rough start but now is a constant joy in our house. I'm so happy that Rodan talked me into keeping her.

Happy Birthday, Baby Ella!!!

D-Day

D-Day / June 6th, 1944

I love watching movies, listening to music, and reading about World War II. I loved how the American public did everything they could to support this country and the troops. We'll always remember D-Day. Thank you to all those that countinue to serve in the US military and those that are true Alllies of our Country.

It's been a great week. Running and workouts at AmenZone are going well. I forgot exacly how  challenging the Primal classes are that I've had to adjust my nutrition and daily calorie count. There were a few days where I tried to run miles and attend a class on the same day. It's too much! Once I begin Marathon Training I'll have to cut down the boot camp classes to two or three a week. Until then, I plan to get in as many workouts as I can.

The Message of This Week has been all about Patience. I've always been a friend of Change and Patience but the older I get, the more anxious I get about certain matters in my Life. I must remember that I am not always in control of The Big Picture. During this morning's 7 mile run, I had an incredible Conversation with God and am back to a good place. I am ready to take on Today and do all I can to inch closer to my goals. Let's all move forward!

*****CHEERS!*****

Current Music: Ginny Owens' Get In, I'm Driving

Current Mood: Thankful for This Moment...

Pool Time!

                       It was 110 degrees yesterday and the water was perfect. Yep, it's Pool Time!

Goals, Faith, & Blessings

        
                                    Sade's By Your Side (Live) /Oakland, CA -- August 26th, 2011
                                                *Sade clip courtesy of YouTube's ConcertKid2

***Random Play

*Clairy Browne & The Bangin' Rackettes: Baby Caught The Bus

*The Script: Science & Faith

*Amanda Marshall: Tuesday's Child

*Jennifer Knapp: Letting Go

*Sade: Bring Me Home - Live 2011 CD

*Will Young: Echoes

 After an early morning run and a Primal Class at AmenZone, I feel pretty good this afternoon. I'm ready to enjoy a quiet weekend at home in and around the pool. I plan to work on marathon training plan, work on my personal journal about the new goals I'm ready to tackle, and catch up on my reading.

My goals aren't just about marathon training and a healthier lifestyle. I'm shifting. There's so much more I want out of my career. I want to really focus and listen to my inner self about this portion of my Life. I'm no Spring Chicken so now's the time to address and make necessary changes.

I'm blessed to have such a strong Faith in God. Through him, I'm thankful to have Faith and confidence in myself. While giving presentations this morning, I felt an ease about the directions I plan to consider for the future. Nothing seems scary right now.

During these past few years, and most recently, I've surrounded myself with people that have become my Mentors of sorts. I'm blessed. I've learned so much about each of the personal relationships I've devoloped. I'd like to believe that all of this has made me a better Son, Partner, and friend.

I can't believe it's going on two years since Rodan and I attended Sade's last concert. It seems like yesterday we were sitting in the audience enjoying her songs of the past 30 years. How can that be? Sade's By Your Side still makes me emotional after all these years. I'm certain Sade's Bring It Home DVD will be playing often this weekend.

*****CHEERS!*****

Current Music: Sade's By Your Side

Current Mood: Happy with a twist of Excitement for this evening's Happy Hour with Friends